Looks like we made it

Dear F,

It’s been a long road, hasn’t it? There are so many things I remember from the last 18 months.

I remember sitting on a vinyl sofa at a soft play centre, cradling you in my arms as you slept, knowing exactly what was wrong with you and being terrified of the journey that it could take us on.

I remember feeding you in the middle of the night only to have you throw the whole lot back up again five minutes later. I lost count of the number of times I blearily changed bedding in the unholy hours between 11pm and 6am.

I remember how many doctors told me that you were fine and what the hell was I even worrying about because you were clearly getting food into your system. I always wanted to tell them that the only reason you fed at all was because I rocked you – sometimes for hours – until you fell asleep, then switched your dummy out for a bottle when I hoped you wouldn’t notice. But I was too exhausted to think straight and I felt like no one really cared anyway.

I remember spending whole days listening to you cry, knowing there was nothing I could do to comfort you and wishing it would all just go away.

I remember feeling like I had failed you in the worst possible way when I had to admit to myself that I could no longer produce enough milk to keep expressing for you. You were nine weeks old and I cried on my bedroom floor until
I was sick.

I remember our Sunday afternoon in A&E, which ended with me going home without you in the early hours of the following morning and under investigation by Social Services. I remember how, as black as that day was, I finally felt like there was some hope for you. And I no longer cared what happened to me.

I remember when things started to get better. How my heart felt like it would burst the first time you took a bottle without any fussing or crying. You may not have cried, but I did that day.

I remember that sometimes we would have setbacks and I would feel terribly afraid for you, that I wouldn’t be able to help you or that the doctors wouldn’t listen to me all over again. But you had a consultant by then and he was on your side every step of the way. I will never be able to thank him enough for what he did for you, and for us as a family.

Before you were born, I used to think that it mattered whether or not I did something spectacular with my life, like I would have wasted some God-given opportunity if I didn’t. There was always a voice in the back of my mind whispering, “You’re meant for more than this”. But sometimes it turns out that destiny doesn’t look a thing you thought it would. Here’s one thing I know for sure: For the first year of your life, being your mother was the hardest job I’ve ever done. In fact, the same little voice that had once told me I was meant for more began to sneer, “You’re not cut out for this”. There were times along the way when I believed that voice and I felt like I absolutely, definitely wasn’t good enough for you. Because even on the hardest days, I knew that there was something really special about you, and I knew that you deserved better than me at my best, let alone my worst.

Despite everything you’ve been through, you are the happiest, most sociable child I have ever known. You love everyone and everything. Your smile lights a fire in my heart every single time I see it. When you climb into my lap, lay your head on my shoulder and sigh, everything in the world suddenly becomes very quiet. It feels like forgiveness, even though I know you don’t remember the times I sat on the floor in your room and cried with you because I didn’t know what to do anymore. I know you don’t remember the day I asked your daddy, “Why did we think it was a good idea to have another baby?” I know you don’t doubt for one second that I love you – and you shouldn’t. Because I do. So much.

Why am I writing this for you today? Because yesterday we saw your consultant and he told us what we already knew; we are nearing the end of this journey. Everything about you suggests that you are getting better. We’ve spent the last six months weaning you off one of your medications and now we have the green light to start reducing the other. The bottom line is this: EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY.

Do you know what my worst fear was? I was afraid that you would have to deal with this for the rest of your life. I was afraid that you were going to be dogged by this condition forever. Yesterday I finally felt like it was safe for me to hope that your future will have nothing to do with the battle you fought for so many months. Here we are, standing on the other side and I can’t believe how far we’ve come.

So it doesn’t matter how many people try to trivialise reflux. I’ve stopped listening. I saw what you went through and there’s just one thing I want you to know:

YOU ARE MY HERO.

Thank you for teaching me how to be your mother. I thought I knew how to handle motherhood before I had you. I thought I’d learnt everything I needed to know from your brother, but you threw me a curveball and you will never know how grateful I really am for that. No, it hasn’t been an easy 18 months… But I wouldn’t change it – or you – for the world.

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71 comments

  1. Double the Monkey Business · April 30, 2016

    What an incredible post. So very honest and emotional. It sounds like you have had some incredibly hard times but I am glad that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you for sharing such a heartfelt letter. #fortheloveofBLOG

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    • Motherhood IRL · April 30, 2016

      Thank you. It made me quite tearful thinking back over our journey, but mostly out of pride for the child he has become, not sadness for what we had to endure along the way.

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  2. justsayingmum · April 30, 2016

    What a journey? Such an emotional one but I am so so pleased that you’re able to have come through so positively with your son – really hope that journey continues so well for you #fortheloveofBLOG

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    • Motherhood IRL · April 30, 2016

      Thank you. It’s been a long and difficult 18 months, but I don’t recognise any of us anymore when I put us beside the people we were at the start… In the best possible way.

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  3. Icried this whole post because I have felt exactly the same way with my daughter and we dealt with social services with my step son and some issues he had. The hardest thing for a parent is to see their child struggle and not be heard. My heart goes to you and your family. #stayclassy

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    • Motherhood IRL · April 30, 2016

      Thank you for reaching out. Sometimes I think it’s half the battle just to know that you’re not alone. I’m sending lots of love to you and your family.

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  4. babiesbiscuitsandbooze · April 30, 2016

    Wow. This had me tearing up, what a beautiful post. You’ve been on such a journey! I am so glad you are coming to the end of that road. You sound like an amazing family. I’m sure your son will look back and realise how lucky he is to have such a wonderful mother who fought his corner. #fortheloveofBLOG

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    • Motherhood IRL · April 30, 2016

      Thank you, love. I was kind of nervous about posting this because of the whole Social Services investigation thing (which probably warranted a more comprehensive explanation), and I’m just blown away by how lovely and supportive everyone has been so far.

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  5. what a journey. You had me in tears. I am so glad you have made it! I remember our daughter having reflux, and I remember taking her to the hospital, so scared. Those days are long gone and she is my good eater now! You and your little hero are amazing, thank you for being brave enough to share this! #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      Thank you so much for reading and commenting. Reflux is such a misunderstood condition, isn’t it? Nobody knows how exhausting and heartbreaking it really is until they’ve been through it with their own child. I’m so glad that things are better for you now too :).

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  6. Sara Handy Herbs · May 1, 2016

    Oh my goodness! I cannot imagine what that must have been like.What a beautiful letter to your son which he will read and understand what an amazing mother you are. You have clearly had some extremely difficult times but have both come through as heroes! Thanks so much for linking up with #KCACOLS. Hope you return next week 🙂

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      Thank you. He deserves only the best things, like all children, and I am only sorry that I couldn’t be that for him right from the start.

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  7. beautybabyandme · May 1, 2016

    Wow! Just Wow! Honey don’t forget you are also a hero! Brave and inspiring xx #KCACOLS

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  8. Fran @ Whinge Whinge Wine · May 1, 2016

    This sounds very familiar.

    Both of mine had awful reflux to the point that they dropped off of the charts entirely and we’re under the paediatrician. It was no easier the second time, he ended up in A&E several times after vomiting so hard he fainted. At 9m he no longer vomits (he also no longer drinks milk, really) but still has digestive issues.

    GERD is an awful, awful disease, and so often trivialised. Despite both babies putting on no weight on any feeding regime the doctors were reluctant to refer on as they ‘looked fine’. Both times.

    It’s so unfair and difficult to enjoy. While other parents seem to have babies who are healthy, thriving and sleeping mine were skinny, miserable and never slept for more than 45 mins at a time for many months. The second time he had colic too and I’m not ashamed to admit I did question what the hell we’d done. Loudly. Often.

    He’s almost ten months and I like him now.

    Sorry for the essay

    #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      As awful as this sounds, I’m glad it’s not just me. I honestly thought we had made a horrible, terrible mistake in having a second baby. There was no joy in those early months at all. I was constantly – and irrationally – angry about what had been done to our lives with the introduction of a new baby. Nothing was as I expected it to be and when I had to stop breastfeeding, I felt utterly robbed of something I had desperately wanted to enjoy. Reflux is an awful, awful thing. Anyone who says “it’s just reflux” can go to hell, in my opinion.
      I didn’t include it in this letter, but some nights I spent more time holding him and trying to comfort him in his tiny bedroom than I did lying down and resting in my own. Even after his diagnosis, he didn’t start to sleep anything like consistently until he was 10 months old. He does okay now, although last night he was awake for most of the night, but I think that’s more to do with teething than anything else.
      I’m really glad things are better for you now, and I hope they continue to improve.

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  9. Michelle G · May 1, 2016

    Gosh this made me tear up. What a lovely post and what a journey you have been. So happy things are getting better for you. I used to measure my success in my career. Now I measure it through my daughter’s smiles. She taught me how to be brave. #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      That’s so true! There really isn’t anything more spectacular than raising children, is there?

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  10. mumzilla · May 1, 2016

    Oh bless you. What a superstar (you!) and what a lucky little boy having such a fab Mummy xx #KCACOLS

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  11. islandliving365 · May 1, 2016

    Such a wonderful and powerful post. You are an amazing and fab Mum 🙂 #KCACOLS

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  13. Emma - meandbmaketea · May 1, 2016

    what an incredibly sad post. I am so pleased you got the help you needed in the end. my son used to be sick a lot at first and it had me worried but things did calm down for us. #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      Thank you, I’m glad we did too. F is such a happy child now and my heart just swells with pride whenever I think of everything he has overcome to get here.

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  14. ljdove23 · May 1, 2016

    Oh gosh this made me so emotional. We went through the same with my daughter, from birth to eighteen months she spent the majority of her time in and out of the hospital, being shipped from one consultant to the next, having tests, scans, invasive procedures trying to get to the bottom of the fact why she was in pain 24-7, cried from morning til night, and eventually, after trialing every medication possible, they said it was reflux, that she would grow out of it, and to some extent she did. Now, at almost three, she still struggles with it in some way, and has so many other issues that make it so difficult to be the parent I wanted to be, but she is my hero, for all that she has suffered. Your son is gorgeous, you are an amazing parent, I sympathise massively for all you have struggled. #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      I’m so sorry that you’ve had to go through this too. It’s so, so hard. Not only hard watching them go through it, but hard knowing how to handle everything it makes you feel yourself. Because it’s easy to feel like a failure when there’s really nothing you can do to help your child. I really hope that things continue to improve for your daughter and that you both have a strong support network to help you through.

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      • ljdove23 · May 1, 2016

        Thank you, I felt like a huge failure. I have had five children and yet never a child that was like Megan, I felt as though I was doing something very wrong. Even now she is very difficult, she is always the child who is poorly or plays up, I guess she too feels the struggle at times. I hope your son continues to improve also. xx

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  15. Madeline · May 1, 2016

    I can’t imagine that feeling of knowing something wasn’t right with your child and then just being dismissed by doctors. I’m so pleased someone finally listened and gave you the help you all needed, and so nice to hear you’re coming out the other side now, what a relief that must be for you. x #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      It was really hard, but I couldn’t be more grateful to the doctors in the hospital who didn’t dismiss us and the consultant who has had F’s back and fought his corner along with us for the last 15 months. We are so, so fortunate to have been looked after by these people and I am forever in their debt. X

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  16. occupation:(m)other · May 1, 2016

    Wow what an amazing post. It certainly does sound like you’ve been on an incredible journey together, I’m fairly confident you’re his hero too lovely. I’m going to share this with friends struggling with reflux…I’m learning that it is such a hidden and underplayed problem. Thank you for sharing your story #stayclassy

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      I’ve just shared the whole story of F and his diagnosis in a new post on my blog if you think that might help them too :). Thank you so much for your kind words; you have no idea how much they mean to me.

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  17. The Mum Project · May 1, 2016

    This is an amazing post that brought a little tear to my eye, a bitter sweet tear. I’m so happy for you and your little one that he is better and you are weaning down the medication. You have written this letter so beautifully, thank you so much for sharing with #StayClassy.

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      Thank you, such lovely words. Even though it was hard at the time, I’m so grateful for the lessons I’ve learned from my experiences with him.

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  18. The Unsung Mum · May 1, 2016

    lovely post! Really brought a tear to my eye! #KCACOLS

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  19. The Mama Nurse · May 1, 2016

    What a difficult thing to go through, but I’m so happy that you are at the end of that chapter for both you and your little one’s sake. And I love the quote you used at the beginning! Would you mind if I maybe included it on one of my upcoming posts about Women Who Inspire?
    #KCACOLS
    Tori
    http://www.themamanurse.com

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  20. Savannah (@HowHesRaised) · May 1, 2016

    Oh, mama, I am so happy to hear that you both are on the other side of this difficult journey. My son, who is now 13 months old, would violently vomit the contents of his stomach after every single feeding for the first 3 months of life. And he’d do it at least twice a day for the next 3. Exhausting doesn’t even begin to cover it. You’re the hero here too, mama ❤ #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 1, 2016

      It’s so hard, isn’t it? Because you want to make it better, but you can’t. And you need to rest and regroup, but they can’t sleep so you don’t get to either because they need your comfort and reassurance. I felt like it would never end for us and I was so afraid that he would struggle with the aftereffects for the rest of his life. How lucky we are to be on the other side of this now! Thank you so much for you comment and for sharing a little of your own story. I think you are definitely a hero too!

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  21. Jess Powell (Babi a Fi) · May 2, 2016

    Such a beautiful post – I really had a lump in my throat reading. It’s so hard when doctors just keep dismissing your fears. x #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 2, 2016

      Thank you so much. I think they all just thought I was being neurotic and they were all kinda perplexed that I didn’t seem to be able to deal with the way he was when I already had one child. But the amount of crying he did was just phenomenal and he wouldn’t sleep at all! X

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  22. fairyqueen · May 2, 2016

    You sound like you have been through so much. A lovely post which brought a tear to my eye. So glad that there is more positive news for you all now:)
    Mainy – myrealfairy
    #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 2, 2016

      Thank you so much. It’s such a relief to finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. How he has come out the other side of all of this with such a sassy little personality is beyond me, but he’s a trooper for sure.

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  23. practicalbydefault · May 2, 2016

    That was certainly well written, heartfelt and so honest. I cried the whole way through. As a mom, it resonated so strongly-feeling helpless, no one listening, not knowing if you are right, or how to help. i am so glad for you that the light is shining brightly now, Thank you so much for sharing. #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 2, 2016

      Thank you so much for reading and for your lovely comment. So appreciated, although I seem to be making a lot of people cry and I feel like I should probably apologise for that!

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  24. theparentingjungle · May 2, 2016

    Oh you lovely lady, my heart goes out to you for the time you sat on the floor and cried. You and your little one are fighters and I am so happy to hear things are so much better for you both. Wonderful, honest post #KCACOLS

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  25. The Pramshed · May 2, 2016

    Such a lovely post hun, I had no idea that reflux could be so scary and a horrible disease for you and your Son to have gone through for 18 months. It must have been awful when Social Services were involved, and I am so sorry that you had to go through that. However I am so glad that you are both coming out the other side, and it is so much better now for you both. Thanks so much joining us at #fortheloveofBLOG, I hope you can join the party next week. Claire x

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 2, 2016

      Thanks Claire. To be honest, before F was born I didn’t even really know what reflux was. It sounded like a pretty benign condition to me, but I got a helluva shock when I started reading into it while I tried to figure out what was going on. Now I feel like mothers need to be more aware of it so they know what the warning signs are and know how and where to get help before they end up in the situation we did. X

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  26. Tara · May 3, 2016

    So pleased this is blog of the day. Reflux doesn’t get nearly enough coverage because, as you said, people trivialise it. So much of what you said resonated with me. Seeing my daughter in so much pain and not knowing how to help (and not being able to make anyone in the medical world care) brought me to my lowest point. Thankfully I found a Facebook forum with a group of parents who provided the (lifesaving) support and information I needed to help her. So pleased you’re through the other side.

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 3, 2016

      There’s just nothing to prepare you for how hard it’s going to be, is there? I knew nothing about it before F was born and it just flattened me completely. Thank you so much for your kind comment. I really appreciate it and I hope your daughter is recovering now too?

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  27. TillyR · May 3, 2016

    Such a heartfelt account and one which struck a chord with me and our family. My eldest is 12 and still lives with reflux today sadly.

    For my daughter, she never grew out of it. We were told by one consultant that my daughter enjoyed being sick and it was all in her head…

    She has since had a pyloroplasty when she was only 6, but will never be free of reflux. It’s an awful disease and one which should have more focus put on it as it can really devastate a family.

    Glad to see you are seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. What a relief that must be. It’s nice to hear that people can have a happy ever after 🙂

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 3, 2016

      I’m so sorry that your daughter is still battling with reflux. My father-in-law has a gastric condition which means that he often struggles with reflux and vomiting too. I don’t think anybody in their right mind would accuse a child – or an adult, for that matter – of enjoying being sick. What a ridiculous concept, and how damaging too.
      Reflux is so badly misunderstood. It is seen as a minor condition, but the impact of it on a family can be catastrophic.
      I really hope that one day your daughter is free of this horrible condition. No one should have to live with something so debilitating.

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  28. Anna · May 3, 2016

    Thank you for writing this post. No matter how much googling and forum searching I did when my daughter was younger, I felt so alone for the first 9 months of my daughter’s life. There is nothing harder than trying to be an advocate for your child and so many doctors refusing to listen. And also listening to your baby cry all day for months and wondering why other babies are so content. Thank god for people like you writing these blogs and also for precious reflux meds!! My daughter is 2 now and completely medication free. I will never forget how hard that time was & the toll it can take on the family and a mother’s sanity, but life moves on and I think we are all stronger because of it. It’s almost enough to put me off another but surely the next one can’t be so bad… 😉 lol! Very happy to hear you are nearing the end of your reflux journey.

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 3, 2016

      I felt very much the same when F was little. I constantly posted on message boards and forums and just tried to find anyone who was going through what we were and knew how desperate I was. I think maybe that’s what gave me the guts to ask for a different medication for F when the Ranitidine became less effective, otherwise I wouldn’t have had a clue whether or not I could trust that it would work. I’m hoping he will be off the Omeprazole by the time he is 2, but I’m taking it very slowly with him as he is just finally starting to enjoy food and I don’t want to jeopardise that.
      Thank you so much for stopping by and sharing your experience. I appreciate it and your support so much and am so glad to know that your daughter has come through the other side of the reflux hell too. X

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  29. caerleoncaramel · May 3, 2016

    My daughter (2nd born) also had reflux. We were hospitalised at 6 weeks when she was spewing every single feed. By that stage I was expressing every feed because I had a feeling (and you have lots of those when you are covered in vomit and sleep deprived), that she vomited less when she had milk from a bottle. The consultant in the hospital was VERY unhelpful. Told me to stop expressing and put her back on the breast. And give her a spoonful of gaviscon after her breastfeed. But but but. He vomited her feed WHILE she was still on the breast and then screamed. And screamed. How was I to get the gaviscon in?! There was so little support. Followed up, shortly after our discharge, by a phone call from the HV to check that I was still remembering to feed my baby because she needed to be fed every 4 hours. “There are concerns about her weight gain, you understand.” If it hadn’t been my second child, I quite possibly would have become insane.

    I was lucky. By the time she was weaned, she had started to grow out of it. By the time she was 12 months old, she vomited little. And now (she’s 7), she pukes profusely when she gets worked up about something. But otherwise, she’s fine.

    From those days of that teeny tiny baby who refused feeds; that baby who would scream herself to sleep and refuse to feed. ‘Wake her after 4 hours. Make sure you offer her a feed’, they said. Do you think they’d ever tried that with a reflux baby?

    This too shall pass. If we are lucky, the passing makes it go away for ever. It doesn’t always go away for ever, and for those who are afflicted with this forever, my heartfelt sympathies. It’s a curse.

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 3, 2016

      What a nightmare you’ve had! I remember being sent some kind of breastfeeding specialist when F was refusing to feed. She told me to “take him to bed for a few days, lots of skin-to-skin, and rebirth him”. Are you kidding me?! I already had a toddler running around and N works silly shift patterns and is hardly ever home. How on Earth was I supposed to spend three days in bed?! So that didn’t work, my milk dried up and we tried thickened formula, but it just made F constipated. Thankfully, when he was admitted to hospital they put him on a special formula and added a different thickener which he could tolerate better.
      There is nothing quite as frustrating as being ignored by everyone when you try to seek help. F is doing so much better now, but he still has his bad days and I’m sure he will for a while. I just hope that he will be able to more or less leave reflux behind for good as he gets older. For now, I’ll take the progress we’ve made and be extremely grateful for it!
      Thank you so much for reading and sharing your experience.

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      • caerleoncaramel · May 3, 2016

        Ah yes – I had seen the BF specialist with my first born (who didn’t have reflux, but who was a nightmare to feed). I had the same advice (bed, feed constantly, rebirth) with him and if I couldn’t do it when he was the first, I sure as hell wasn’t going to manage it with the perpetually vomiting and screaming second, when I had a 2 year old running around too! We tried gaviscon, ranitidine and then, when I finally gave up expressing, we put carobel in formula. None of it made any difference. I cried and cried. I remember going back to work for a ‘keeping in touch day’. I left her with my mum. She phoned me at lunchtime in tears because she couldn’t get her to feed. ‘What am I going to do?’ she said. She just won’t stop crying and hasn’t fed…

        One time wee ended up back in hospital with suspected overdose after being prescribed ranitidine because the GP mis-prescribed the dosage and we were delivering about 20 times the dosage. Even at the correct dose, Ranitidine didn’t seem to work anyway. Nothing seemed to work. She was a reluctant feeder. Eventually the spewing got less. The screaming abated. She’s still skinny. She was a scrawny chicken as a baby and never did chub up. But she never gets indigestion or heartburn. And for that I will be eternally grateful.

        It was the lack of understanding that got to me, I think. The shrugging of the shoulders – “by the time she’s weaned, it won’t be so bad”. Like what we were going through meant nothing. They said “she won’t remember it”. And of course, she doesn’t. I do, though. It took the first year of her life away from me really. And rendered me a fairly rubbish mum to her brother too.

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  30. pintsizedmum · May 4, 2016

    This is such an amazing post, I nearly cried reading it. I have never commented on a post but this really struck a chord. My second is almost 5 months and (only) has ‘mild’ reflux, so in no way do I think my journey is as tough as yours has already been but nevertheless it’s hard. Big brother is 19 months and I wonder some days whether I can give him the time he needs when I have to stretch myself between 2 little people. Your post has given me hope; hope that it doesn’t last forever, hope that he will grow into his own little amazing person and hope that I won’t feel like a cr*p mum for eternity. Thank you!

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 4, 2016

      It has been a long road for us, but I equally know that others have had an even harder time with reflux than we have. It’s all relative, because what affects your children affects you too. I really hope that things improve for you; it’s SO hard. And I hope that you have support to help you through. Also, I want you to know that you are not a crap mum. Not at all. I promise you, and I promise you that your eldest doesn’t think you are either and he will not remember how hard this has been on all of you. Trust me.
      Thank you so much for stopping by and leaving such a lovely comment. X

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  31. Silly Mummy · May 5, 2016

    What a lovely post. Sounds like you’ve been through so much, but so pleased it’s getting better. You’ve done a fantastic job & he sounds like a lovely boy. I agree that there does seem to be a lot of confusion and difficulty around identifying and treating reflux issues, and they can have such a massive impact and be so distressing for babies and parents. #KCACOLS

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 5, 2016

      Thank you, such a sweet comment. It’s been a long road, but he’s an amazing little boy and he’s so full of sparkle and love. I’m super proud of him!

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  32. Tracey @ One Frazzled Mum · May 6, 2016

    Oh I am so glad this is getting better for you and what an amazing and honest post too. You must be so strong to have kept fighting for the truth. I had a friend who’s little boy had reflux and she too fought really hard to get the right treatment and help xx #kcacols

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  33. The Speed Bump · May 6, 2016

    Beautiful post. Sorry you’ve been through so much, what a trying journey it sounds like for you but glad to hear you’re coming out the other side now. #KCACOLS

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  35. absolutely prabulous · May 24, 2016

    Oh my, well I made you cry this morning with the anniversary one and now it’s your turn to make me emotional. The beauty of twitter chats! What a gorgeous well written post. Thank heavens you’re through to the other side. My second child had it and then went on to develop asthma too the lucky boy! It is so hard. Although, this is not a new post, I’m adding it to my blogstars series. Will let you know when it’s live.

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    • Motherhood IRL · May 24, 2016

      Thank you, bless your heart. My eldest has asthma and eczema, poor kid. I just hope that F doesn’t end up with either or both. I really feel like he’s been through enough. Thank you so much for adding it to the blogstars series! That’s so exciting!

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  36. absolutely prabulous · June 14, 2016

    Hi I can’t find your name on this site. I’m trying to feature this on this month’s #BlogStars but I couldn’t message you as your twitter info isn’t showing either! Can you DM me to let me know your name or at least your twitter name so that I can tag you. Thanks!

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